Through the Plot Twist

2018.03.18_Through the plot twists_LiaFaith Fischer.jpg

“You’ve always been right there for me;
don’t turn your back on me now.
Don’t throw me out, don’t abandon me;
you’ve always kept the door open.
My father and mother walked out and left me,
but God took me in.”
Psalm 27:9-10 (MSG)

Life is full of plot twists. They’re those moments you think will never come. The moments you never see coming or the ones you hope never will.

In Psalm 27, we see David declaring that in those ‘plot twist’ moments, the Lord is ever present. When his MOTHER and FATHER abandoned him- the Lord took him in. In a moment, totally contrary to what life should hold, the Lord is his Rescuer.

That’s just who the Lord is. He is our ever present help. He is the Father who is never passive or absent. When the entire world seems to be against us- He is forever for us. When everyone leaves- He is constantly beside us.

Most of my life, I was the person that was friends with ‘everyone’ but no one at the end of the day. I have the Entertainer personality so I can keep ya laughing and I can keep you at a distance from the mess going on backstage. This caused me to feel separated and alone a lot. But in those moments where I just wanted to belong… I remember feeling Holy Spirit right at my side. I could feel heaven cheering me on! I knew that the Lord was close to me even when no one else wanted to be. And when the ‘plot twist’ of an eating disorder entered my life- He held me close to His heart through it all.

I was just a freshman in high school when my self-worth issues bubbled over into a full blown eating disorder. I hated who I was and what I looked like. I hated that I couldn’t get any of the guys in my class to like me. To be honest I was angry with the Lord- why didn’t he make me petite and beautiful like the other girls I knew? Why couldn’t he have made me a sporty kid instead of one who would rather sit at home and write musicals and poems?

I spiraled down a dark path for about 10 months and looking back I can see the arms of the Father protecting me from so many things. As depression and anxiety from the eating disorder lead to cutting and thoughts of suicide… I can see the Lord protecting me from even causing any lasting scars or taking things too far. He was my shield from my own self destruction.

By the time I realized how far I had fallen and how desperate I was to be freed from prison I had trapped myself into, Jesus was right there ready to set me free from it all.

Even though I had run away.
Even though I had pushed Him away.
Even though I had held anger in my heart…
He still held me close with grace and mercy in His arms and kindness in His eyes.
No matter where you are in your story- His arms are open wide to you.

Liafaith Fischer is a Refres{her} blogger for Ignite Life. She is a 24 year old singer/songwriter who was born and raised in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania but has made Las Vegas her home. She feels called to communicate that not only is brokenness beautiful but it is what brings the lonely together and is what draws us closest to Christ. She does this through original songs, which can be found on her debut EP, Wander, and on her blog- She also works full time for Grace City Church as a worship leader and as their worship/production coordinator.